I went in for another scan today. I really thought that this one would be completely clean. I really thought that we “deserved” good news this time. I really thought that I needed to hear that they found nothing this time. I really…….
The Doctor did find another suspicious spot. And today I was reminded that this is going to be a loooooong battle. I may not always take having an incurable cancer seriously. Today I do.
I “deserve” a lot worse. And sometimes I need to be reminded. And sometimes I need to remember that you don’t work that way. And that you have already saved me from death.
-Jan 12th, 2012
I can’t believe this is already my 3rd day doing chemo in the infusion room. I call it cancerland, cause that is what it feels like: a different land. The people are soooo sick here. Am I going to get that sick?
I sat next to an old man, he was alone and sad looking. I talked to him as we looked at the window. He smiled once and then took a nap.
I pretended to take a nap too. But really I just there thinking. Thinking about how blessed I am. And about how I want to share my joy with others. That fact that I can still smile as big as I do is a miracle.
And I want to share that with others……
-August 3rd , 2011
Bryce asked me today about his future wife.
B: Who am I going to marry, Mom?
Me: God has picked out a perfect girl for you to marry. But in a long, long, long, time.
B: Is she going to be pretty?
Me: Baby, she is going to be the most beautiful girl you have ever seen. Like a princess!
B: (huge smile on his face) Wow. God really loves me.
That was adorable. And he is right, God you do love us!!!
-Jan 15th, 2012